ignite, reignite

i've been quivering inside this
shell of cute comments.
it's what carries me through the hours.
yeah the outside brilliance is so compelling,
the release of hope.

one of these days,
i'll put down the gas can for good;
leave this smouldering mess behind.
and i swear,
i'll never let you bring a lighter near me again.
you can keep your damn sparks to yourself.

convenience is terminally pending;
it hides between the chapters of a faded
rulebook so audaciously outdated:
guidelines to a fairy tale ending.
my heart, itself, is rendering.

and if you dare think twice,
you'll see it has its own weakened seams,
as weak as your wildest dreams.
but it's you who loads the dice,
and you always aim to entice.

context being awhile back, not recently. but my thoughts nonetheless