schizophrenia would be a better metaphor

and i wouldn't say i'm going out of my mind
because of the synonymy,
but this insanity is growing on me

nervous

i will blame my nervous disposition
on my sympathetic state
my radial is through the roof
my pupils massively dilate
if all these nerves traversed just through
my spinal cord, bypassed my brain,
i'd stop this mindless chattering,
i'd understand where you are coming from.

if only i could simplify
these polyrhythmic passing phases
i'm sure you could decipher them
as my logic slowly raises
arguments and arguments for
why i can't find solace now
but none of it is feasible
please don't turn and ask me why or how

you make me so nervous
i just tend to react when i'm near you
you make me so nervous
my reflexes countering your every move

cause your voice is more than air and chords
your eyes not just your retinae.
stop looking with your optic nerves
please see right where my thoughts do lie.
my mind's an awful secretary
it loses files and loses lines:
misplacing how i want things now,
tacking up these memos i don't write.

you make me so nervous
i just tend to react when i'm near you
you make me so nervous
my reflexes countering your every move

and i'm exiting my comfort zone,
something fairly new to me.
i'm letting loose my firm anchor,
and drifting to an unclear sea.
i'm scared i'll be a nervous wreck
tossed about by careless tide.
but i'll find security
with God who's always right here by my side.